Happy Sunday ya’ll!
Today I might embarrass my future self with this blog post. In fact my future self might cringe and want to take a getaway trip to Thailand. Then again that sounds like a great idea now. Nevertheless I am still posting this. Today I’d like to share the mistakes I’ve made on my meditation practice. Keep in mind these are things that not everyone does. Just yours truly. Therefore don’t compare other people’s journeys to others.
So without further ado here you go:
This is my number one piece of advice for anything. Man have I struggled with this especially at the beginning. My mind could not understand that meditation happens before anything else in the day. Also that I had to make time for it. I wasn’t suddenly going to feel better because I wished for it to happen. That it meant taking away thoughts and beliefs that were hurting my spiritual growth.
Honestly though, I think a lot of this had to do with the fact that I let uncertainty take over. I didn't know how to break the cycle. I was mindlessly worrying all the time. I was trying to control every aspect of my life that it became unbearable.
Once I made this a daily practice, it became easier. I could think clearer and life was better.
2. Putting In The Work
In other words, I didn’t want to deal with my problems. I didn’t want to admit to myself that I had fallen off track. That I was becoming a hot mess and only cared about school. I feared that I wouldn’t make it in my spirituality practice because I had failed at so many other things. More than that I feared change. I didn’t want to find new rhythms and tempos because it was “too hard.”
3. Thinking Too Much
I’ve sort of touched on this before but I used to think. A lot. About fears and ridiculous situations that would never happen. I didn’t let my faith and love in the universe take over. I needed to remind myself that everything’s okay. That I’m right where I needed to be.
Now I just let my mindless thoughts pass. I tell myself that it's brain working, not my heart. That my brain helps me survive but my heart allows me to feel.
There you go. I’m sure there are many more to keep track of but these are the main ones. My point in telling you this is that sometimes this path bumpy. In fact it’s perfectly imperfect. You might not have the same positive practice as the day before or feel like nothing’s happening. It’s that we learn and let go. Don't hold onto the past because it won't bring anything but regret.
With all this being said (and possibly embarrassing my future self), I hope ya’ll have a great day. Namaste.